Mirror Memories

You live with the memories
Only memories..
Beautifully shared or violently forced
But all you have is memories..
A stolen oxygen supply..

The hurt takes you back to that same place
Knives resemble what you can't replace
Tears the only trace
And you find yourself in the emptiness..
Nothingness
Shattered
Bruised

You hope to see yourself in broken mirrors
Everywhere you go, you pick up the pieces
When even the beautiful is a far from the truth
Bleeding on the floor, you keep fighting for even a glimpse of what is real

Is it still real?
Was it ever real?
How far did you go to find something that would last a moment?
A moment that held no promise..
For how long could you hold onto it before it brutally broke your heart?

All you see in this shattered mirror is the evidence of violent hands
As you long for life to fill your lungs..

The cry in the nothingness, never heard
Shades of blue
Darker shades of blue
Until blackness consumes you

Janie Davel