Woorde

 Stilte maak my seer..

Woorde soveel meer

Het jy nog bestaansreg?

Leef jy met gevoel?

Bloei jy..

Of het jy jou hartklop vir stilte verruil?

“Ag, jy weet ek’t nie bedoel wat ek sê nie!”

Maar

Jou hart is reeds verniel

Hoor alles

Sif alles

Beleef alles

En... tot die lemme dieper sny, oorleef alles

Hoe kan lewe en dood oor dieselfde tong gly?

Uit ‘n mond spoel en jou dors les

Of jou laat verdrink?

Wie sal verstaan hoe woorde verniel

As dit sonder grense jou woede weerspieël?

Janie Davel

I Can't let Go

Don’t look at me like that

Are you really gonna tell me it’s just me?

What is this I’m facing?

Once..twice..Then a thousound times fading...

What are you saying?

Keep me guessing..

When is the final bow?

Are you gonna look away?

Now.. then.. always running...?

I can’t do this anymore..

Just spit it out!

Tell me..

Wet your lips once more

You can tell me you love me

But if you don’t mean it, let me go..

I can’t wrap my fingers around your slippery lies

You can’t bear it when I look at you

Cause that’s truth staring right back at you

Truth of how I love you

If it was mere words

I’d swallow it

But you touched me deeper  than that

Now I can’t ask you what you want me to do

Cause I know and I don’t want to

I’d have to let you go

But baby, I just don’t want to

Is it the fear that you’ll never be mine?

That I’ll never see you smile in the early morning light

You want me to forget how your lips touched mine

But there’s a reason why love mirrors the divine

So I know this thing you ask of me

But I can’t let you go

Janie Davel

Touch Me

Can I whisper every secret

Let all insecurities fade

Draw from your eyes compassion

that will break the chains of hate

Self-hatred

Regret

Resentment

I know you love me

I know you see the deeper part of me

You embrace the worst

You love the best

But I...hate the heaviness inside of me

The fear that we can’t give each other more

Touch me..

Touch me deeper than before

I need to know our love is more than enough

Stop the tears from falling as you tell me this is true

Can I let my secrets burst through my pain as I open up to you..?

Will you love me when I’m broken?

Will you hold me when I cry?

Flow through my veins

Until my fears melt away

I have never been this close,

This vulnerable to hurt

Teach me what trust is

Search my eyes

Let your love destroy the lies

Janie Davel

Sterre of Ligte

Onder ligte of onder sterre..

Waar sal my talente leef?

Waar sal mense my die beste kan meet?

Ek lyk mos mooi met 'n spieêl in die hand

Almal moet wonder.. 

Ja, almal moet weet wat le soos gode in my kas

Ek moet mos alles toesmeer..

Ek wil jou met verlange nader trek

Tot jy smelt in my oë

en ek 'n lipstick merk uitlokkend op jou wang kan los

dan...

Passievol op jou mond..

En oor die lyne

Terwyl my gedagtes jou wese

soos 'n teiken skets

Ek  stap hier in

en almal kyk

Maar eintlik is ek leeg

Stil en leeg

Dalk word jy eendag wakker

met 'n lem dwarsdeur jou hart

Want hierdie porselein pop is eintlik stukkend

Ja, ek haal asem 

en hou vas aan my spieël

Maar my hart is tussen mens-wees en stomp gewete verdeel

Dit gee my geen vervulling om my lippe in te kleur

en onder 'n duisend ligte

growwe hande te moet keer

Hande wat wil voel en vat

want ja, dit lyk of ek myself bemark

en ek dink ek gee ook nie regtig om nie

want ek kan tog niks meer voel nie

Amper dood

maar tog geen asem nood

Ek is nie jou liefdes toevlug nie..

EK

IS

VERNIEL

Janie Davel 

                                                                            

Sense of Love

She touches a soul like piano keys

Unlocks the potential of a heart

Though what is visible is only black and white

She speaks truth that never asks for proof

And when she sings she’s the mystery of dawn

Her whispers are comfort when the sound of applause fade

Her touch flows to the core of a soul

She sings and you are lured away

She speaks though she finds none to say

She loves quietly

Soothes her longings silently

She lost her voice

Stumbles in darkness

Still bound to play the keys of a heart

And make souls aware of silent sound

The only sense she’ll never lose is the sense of love

The touch that is never forced to spring forth in sound

The touch that only hurts when it is unwilling to sacrifice

The touch bound to praise

To answer the call of unending  grace

Janie Davel

9 March 2011

Memories

Will I reach out and touch you

in the memories of our days together

As I stare into the nothingness 

of what we become

I cannot mirror myself in this no longer

As the sight of you in the stream of my tears

are too much to bear..

What do you do

when the weight of love drags you

to the bottom of the ocean

drowning in the memory of you?

.....The sound of your voice...

The lines of your hands which I read as a love letter...

The sensation of your fingers caressing my lips

How your hands traced every curve of my body...

as you drank from the well of my mouth

quenching your thirst with every sensation...

I miss admiring your beauty

and seeing love flow from your eyes...

I miss your hand in mine

as we silently opened up our hearts to love

Will you return to me

Hold on to me

To re-live those days

when every sacred moment

were just you and me

Janie Davel  

  

Close the Distance

Are you standing at the doorway
do you hope to find a reason to believe
is the distance getting closer
are you entering the spaces in between

touch my face
caress my skin
get a little closer
cause i know this love will not fade away

if i ever fall
i will fall for you
fall deeper into you
and if i ever run
i will run to you
if ever i give myself away
it'll be only to you

are you losing  false security
are you mesmerized by what you see inside
did you ever think there's a way to love
and that i would be the one to love you more

go deeper  than 
you once believed
lose yourself in love
cause i know this love will not fade away

if i ever fall
i will fall for you
fall deeper into you
and if i ever run
i will run to you
if ever i give myself away

do you know that there's a promise
do you know that there's a chance
do you know that there's a change inside of me

if i ever fall
i will fall for you
fall deeper into you
and if i ever run
i will run to you
if ever i give myself away
it'll be only to you

cause if i ever cry
i will cry for you
if life breaks your heart in two
if i ever break
i will break for you
if i ever love
you will be my reason to

Janie Davel

Turn Around

Why don’t you tell me what you really think

How you really feel

I’m losing control

Is this reality

Turn around and look at me

Baby, are you leaving me

Do not feed me lies now

Pretense won’t save us now

I was wrong

Now my owned strength is gone

Sometimes you underestimate your words

Cos you think you have power

But after every thing is said

The rain falls harder

I know I really messed up

Baby, can you hear me

Is it just me or are you fighting my embrace

So, what now

I’m suffocating in the weight of regret

If you can

Let me breathe

If you’re willing

In something better

Believe

Janie Davel

Courts of Love

Lock me in the courts of love

with your eyes..

Hold me captive

til we lose all sense of time

Touch me deeper

than what I’ve known before..

Let your love awake the passion

that’s been longing to escape

In the burning hours of the night

I will breathe your love

May I touch your lips

May I hold you near

as I let go of the fear

As I break down these walls

to let you in

Take me..

Touch me..

Hold me like you’ll never let me go

Janie Davel

28 August 2011

Life

Life is a song I choose to sing

Beauty to unveil

Breath that God alone can give

Spoken words

Written words

Inspiring words

And even unspoken words

Life is locked up in the silence

In devotion of praise

and humbleness of prayer

Life is laughter

A longing for life found in many

A zest for life I have found

In all of life’s insanity

I have found that the essence of my being is love.

Janie Davel

Trust

I touch you

But how do I reach your heart?

I just want to close the distance

That's keeping us apart.

Will you let me reach deeper?

Or keep closing your eyes?

Why don't you see

I'll never keep you under

or strangle you with lies

I just want to love you

and I know you love me too

But I can't break through your eyes

You won't let me baby...why?

Why do you hold back?

Please trust

Don't build this wall

Cause the higher it gets

the harder I fall

When you hold me close

I feel your love

Then you speak...tell me you love me

I see it in your eyes

I always look away

before you see me cry

Cause my love flows deeper than you know

and I wonder if it's safe to tell you so?

It's always in the deeper touch

that we find the security we need

So let me love you

Let me tell you so

without holding back..

or the fear that maybe you don't

Take my hand

Let me in

Even when the lights go down

and you can't see my face

In tose momets..speak

Trust

Feel

Break

Just be..

Maybe you are scared

because the hurt cut so deep

But all I know is I love you

and I want you to know

Janie Davel

I Know your Name

Do you know what I see when I look at you?

Do you know the true measure of My love for you?

A love that stretches beyond the fears and guilt

That is hidden in silence when everybody looks your way

They don’t know you

Yet they judge you

But their human eyes don’t see the way I do

Do you see that there’s no distance too wide for Me to cross?

And that I see in you the reason for a blood-stained wooden cross?

There is life beyond the shadows

There is truth that will demolish every lie

You are the one that I love

I have chosen you

I know your name

I look beyond all your efforts made of clay

To search a heart that has been lost

But now I call you to believe

Cos you were destined  to live

I see in you a bride of beauty divine

I love you deeply

Long to make you MINE.

Janie Davel

Hartseer

In besige strate loop hartseer alleen

In beddens le dit saans verbloem

want daar is niks waarin hartseer kan roem

Dit skuil tussen berge

Word vermom tussen mense

Kry soms ‘n stem wat bewe

Wat stry teen wat dit aan jou doen

Waar  verkragting liefde is,

is hartseer geen verweer

Is dit so diep gewortel dat dit jou wese beheer

As jy lag sal niemand weet hoe jy verniel is,

wonder of jy ooit weer heel sal wees

Soggens maak jou seer jou wakker

Dwing dit jou genadeloos om trane te keer

Wat doen jy as jy voel jy kan nie meer?

Want almal het ‘n hart met onbeheerste emosies-

Woede

Veragting

Seer

en haat

Elke hart wil deel, wil praat

Wil die seer van die verlede beter maak

Elke hart wil liefde smaak

Elkeen leef met sy eie stem

Sy eie keuses

Sy eie kuns van oorlewing

Want jy haal asem

Jy leef maar in wese is jy dood

want niemand hoor jou hart se nood

Jou wonde toegesmeer

maar die sout van jou trane drip deur die seer

Janie Davel

6 Maart 2011

Donker Sluiers

Donker donker sluiers

Wat met gewigte jou emosies bly tap..

Jou hand skyn deur die gordyn van jou siel

Maar daar is niks om aan te raak nie

Ontoereikend

Onaangeraak deur liefde

So verniel deur die lewe

Ontvoer...

Jou stem agter glas

So dood soos jou jou oë

Kan jy sien hoe jy bloed uit jou are tap?

Weet jy wat jy doen?

Kyk  na die bloedspore

In die gange van jou hart

Hoe het alleenheid jou dan so verteer?

Wat lê so diep begrawe

Dat jy stukkend deur glas oë bly staar?

Janie Davel

20 November 2010

Lewe

Lewe is 'n teiken wat almal graag wil tref.

Elke hart vertel 'n dorre verhaal van seerky en 'n hunkering na soveel meer..

Lewe is water wat die siel se dors sal les.

Maar woorde is soms lemme wat die hart vir ewig kwes.

Ver en wyd gaan soek ek na vrede..

Leef ek dan nie meer?

Het ek êrens tussen wraak en bloed-spoor met my hart betaal?

Bloeisels kleur die strate in.

Selfs 'n reuk aan elke blaar.

Maar die mens het tog 'n keuse en dit is die gevaar.

"Bly 'n rukkie langer," smeek die eensaamheid vanaand.

Die hande van eensaamheid is dood. Geen gevoel..

Geen teken van lewe.

'n Dowwe beeld van more.

Jou skerp woorde op my spieël geskryf..

Die hart bly die mees kwesbare skepping.

Jou woorde 'n lem met bloed bevlek.

Janie Davel

27 Mei 2010

Dans met My

Ek het jou toegedraai in watte

en met dooie oë na jou gestaar

Kon nooit vind wat diep binne jou lê

So geheimsinnig soos 'n sluier

So morbied soos die donker..

Moet ek wonder- Is dit jy?

Wat skuil agter die deure van jou oë?

Wees tog kind as jy my lewenslus bewonder

Ek staan soekend langs jou

met die letsels van die lewe

Leef deur die wind wat die blare roer

as ek jou stem nie langer kan hoor

Sing vir my deur die riete

Gee my jou hand

Net 'n stukkie van jou

Die sout van jou trane

Die diepte van jou liefde

En...

Voor jou asem jou beveel om vir ewig stil te bly

Dans met my..

Janie Davel

3 Oktober 2010

Black Tears

I cried black tears

that turned to velvet

in the light of the sun

I know you may be deceived

into believing that when you turn away,

I will forget..

But instead,

oil leaks from my lamp

as I attempt to make words

The evidence of how deep my love flows for you

Like crystals in the light of the stars..

Even when I close my eyes

and no longer gaze upon your beauty

Even then you will be a part of me

Janie Davel

5 December 2010